love-hurts1Read a blog by Brian Dodd earlier and thought the tension he wrestles with is a reflection of my own….so thought I’d share.

Do you try to win with people, build teams, make sure other people get credit, forgive others, and serve those less fortunate? Then why do I often feel like such a selfish leader?  Why do things continually surface in my life that makes me question my primary motivations?

Personal ambition is a healthy quality as long as it does not eclipse the desire and motivation for the fame of Jesus to spread. The following are seven tensions I have that I think are probably common amongst other leaders.  We just do not talk about them at parties.

  1. Am I more interested in my agenda or God’s agenda?  Hopefully they are one in the same but what is my primary motivation?
  2. Am I more interested in being a success publicly or privately?
  3. Does my desire for financial gain eclipse my desire to add value to others?
  4. If I create incredible art and get no credit for it, or worse yet if someone else gets credit for it, am I good with that as long as Jesus is glorified?
  5. What is my real motivation for wanting to leave a great legacy?
  6. If no one ever said “Thank You” or acknowledged my efforts but God was pleased with me, would that be enough?
  7. Are people more important to me than the products I am producing?